one moment please

so no more bonhoeffer. apparently i am the only one in this house who loves him. i will have to move on to other topics.

this past weekend i escaped austintown and traveled to the pittsburgh region and visited a favorite bookstore of mine. i finally broke down and bought alan lightman's einstein's dreams. i seem to always forget this book and so i was pleased to see the copy on the shelf. in each chapter of the book lightman describe a reality in which time is different. one reality holds no future, one alters cause and effect allowing them to appear in any sequence, one reality a life only lasts for one day, and so on.

i love thinking about time. i love trying to be. here. now. i love thinking about the future. i hate when i get stuck in those larger than life moments of the past that need to be left back where i found them. i want my story to be about time not wasted. but i do waste time. and so i wonder if there might be a way to redeem time. cash it in for all it's worth. maybe this year will be about using up each moment just the way i receive it.